A journey just begun

I recently joined classes for MBA coaching. It didn't hit me then that I was about to give the toughest exam in the world.
However, recently I have been witness to a few of my friends having a really tough time in their preparations. People who I consider much superior to me, when it comes to the english language, or even intelligence per se, are faring much worse than i would expect them to. And it makes me wonder whether, I even have any minute chance of succeeding in my quest.
On the one hand, I know a few people who have immense faith in my abilities. Much greater faith than I have on myself. They feel that if I put in the right effort, there shouldn't be a hurdle I cant cross. While, on the other hand, I see much more deserving people falter.
When I contemplate, I realise they aren't completely wrong, those that believe in me. I have never really stretched myself enough. Never worked so hard that I feel that I have no more energy left in me. For this once, I need to reach that limit.
Frankly, I don't think that I should be too discouraged by the results that others obtain for their efforts. I know I have it in me to achieve my aim.
It is today, I feel, that my journey has begun.

I will leave half of me behind, for us to later find,
Since you still, about it, are bereft,
If, however, we fail to do so,
You will have to make do with just whats left..

I dreamt again of you today,
Will this now happen on every day,
You overpower my every thought,
To what bittersweet end, have i been brought?

I want you more with every breath,
I want you more with every day spent,
I feel your touch, I feel your breath,
I feel you, even when I know you are not there.

That smile, a joy forever for me,
Without it, this world seems gloomy to me,
You are my life, I live through you,
With each absent day, I die without you.

I can feel the kiss, you first gave me,
A surprise, ecstatic it made me,
I remember each kiss, I have got ever since,
Each peck, each nibble, my heart it fills.

Yet, there is something, I think is amiss,
Something I want, but havent got as yet
I know you need time, all I have got, I shall give,
But when it comes, we'll get closer still.

Today as I woke up

Something I wrote just after I woke up. It lacks finishing and is crude in places. But couldnt stop myself from putting it up.

Today I woke up and grabbed beside,
Hoping, it wasn't a dream, for a while,
Where I and you were together in bed,
My arms around you, yours' holding me tight.

Oh what I would give to have you next to me,
Our paths entwined, lives a musical symphony,
With the break of dawn, I could see your peaceful face,
And I would admire its beauty till morning came.

I would remove the falling hair from your face,
Uncover your back, feel all over and embrace,
We would patiently remove the walls between us,
Each piece would disappear, nothing left in the end.

Then I would grab beside me again,
Nibble at your ears, your neck, your face,
Kiss you all over, from bottom to top,
And then we would be one, and complete this love song.

Last night!

I waited so long for a hello,
I waited through songs, through words,
She stayed away all the while,
Until I realized - she was gone without a good night!!

I hang like a lantern in the dark,
Everything sees me, yet I see nothing,
I feel without a meaning, without a reason,
An emptiness in me seems to hide.

I live everyday, as if there's always tomorrow,
So I have lived for year after year that follow,
But is this life? Not to live in this moment?
I run around in circles, when I should just stand and reason

Find happiness amongst all the pain and sorrow,
Beauty which exists amidst the grim and the ugly,
Love thats greater than hate or me,
Live life like there's never tomorrow.

I hang like a lantern in the dark,
Everything sees me, yet I see nothing,
But might not I help someone see in the dark?
Can't that give life a reason, a reason to live?

Yet in wait!

I am searching for her, but cannot find
The only girl thats on my mind
I lie awake, and contemplate
Was it too soon, or was it too late?

But only she can help me out
I feel so lonely in a crowd
My wait for her seems to last forever
With no chance of an answer, not now not ever

I want to run, shout and fight
I want to shy, forget and hide
So many conflicting emotions I can feel
If I dont lose hope, I lose my dignity

But what worth is a life without her
A life in which I just trod and shudder
No light, no colour, no happiness at all
Without any light, music or colour

Pray, I have to find a way
I cannot for long, in this condition stay
My mind goes crazy, my heart feels heavy
My life keeps turning into an epic tragedy!