In hindsight, I realise what my fault has been. I worry about those who are not worth the worry, and don’t worry about those who really care. And that makes all the difference. Life has a funny way of teaching you things. And an even funnier way of teaching you the lessons you just don’t seem to learn on your own. Sometimes even twice bitten and thrice shy falls short!
But, the important thing is to learn from your mistakes(and those of others) when it still can make a difference. Well, to achieve that aim, requires effort. And effort, I realise, is a must now. My life has been running in circles. Going over the same problems again and again. Lack of effort and untoward expectations have been my down fall up until now. It seems, I need to concentrate my efforts in the right direction.
Instead of wasting time, analysing the past and trying to predict the future, i need to give my all to the present. Dreams are always seen, but you need to work on them to achieve them. It seems that the time is ripe to take a step in the right direction.
Firstly, I need to stop wasting my time on meaningless pursuits. Gaming, girls, popularity. These are all just chaff in the wheat called success. If you are successful, you don’t need to go looking for these things. These things come looking for you.
Secondly, I need to learn to concentrate at the task at hand. I have always been procrastinating, now I need to go ahead and Just Do It. Its much more fun having fun, if you don’t need to worry about some work you left undone.
Thirdly, I need to learn to persist. I have left too many things half cooked. I have lost steam half way so many times. I seem to have lost the confidence to finish anything ever. Its time I selected a task, saw it to the end, and hence gained back my self-confidence.
Fourthly, I need to learn to truly balance my life. I have oft misused this term.And now, its about time I actually learnt how to do it. Balance in life and peace of mind are so heavily dependent on each other, that having no balance is akin to having no peace.
And finally, I need to learn to become selfish in the good sense of the word. Stop interfering in other people’s lives, and stop trying to help them (very few times are people actually thankful for your help!). Actually think about my actions and their effects on my future, and hence prioritize my time.
I start this journey unknown of the consequences or the destination I will finally reach. But hoping, that it corrects the direction of my life enough, to justify the gifts of the lord above.